Tuesday, October 27, 2009

The Difference

I find myself talking differently now. Well at times I do. Sometimes when I speak about a certain subject I surprise myself that I actually know this and everything I'm saying is making sense. I attribute it to my attention to my surroundings, I seem to pick up on key things being said, something I stumbled on the web, noticing how a company runs and I can use that in a future presentation or just a conversation. I'm more analytical.

I also noticed that I haven't drawn in a long time. I haven't designed anything organic. Has my mind shifted, or did I come to realize what I have been lying to myself about? Do I believe this lie so much that it's become real in a fake reality? Somehow I am not afraid of it crashing down because I don't believe it ever will. Maybe it isn't a lie at all and it is real.

I know one thing for sure, I've grown a lot in the past year.



Thursday, October 15, 2009